oobleck.

A couple of weeks ago I received a book at a MOPS (Mothers of PreSchoolers) meeting. It's titled Momsense: A common-sense guide to confident mothering. Now, I'm usually pretty quick to say that I am not at all a book worm but ever since Kyle has been gone (well, even before then.. when I started taking anxiety medication) I have had difficulty falling to sleep at night. I feel exhausted come 4 in the afternoon but come 10:00 when it's show time- nothing! I close my eyes but feel my lids twitch with all the thoughts that begin to run around my head. I need to pay that bill. Did I check Tyler's backpack for homework? Whose birthday party am I going to this week? They just keep coming. So I thought I would try good ol' reading to see if it would ease me to sleep. It works! And I discovered that I actually love the book I received. Chapter after chapter I learn more about ways I can become a better mother. Isn't that what every mom wants after all? For me it comes down to getting off this damn computer. Once I am off I am good to go and am completely hands-on with the boys. Today Tyler and I made oobleck. Again. I kind of love it.. :)

Last night was the chapter on patience. I think I am going to read it again tonight. It's something I need to work on a lot. I remember being rushed as a little kid and I didn't like it but here I am as a mom doing it. The author talks about how she strived to go an entire day without saying "hurry up" and how much of a struggle it was. I can definitely relate. We live in a busy world where time never stops but toddlers do to smell flowers, pick their noses and touch everything. In the end I'm the only one to blame because I should allot more time, which is what I did this morning and I'm pleased to say we had a wonderful and relaxed morning. Granted I had to wake up two and a half hours before we were due to walk out the door but if that is what it takes then I will do it.

Stay tuned for more adventures. :)