Wednesday, February 23, 2011

A healthier me.

So to add to my last post, yes- I have anxiety issues. Some of you are completely unaware while others of you have whitnessed it firsthand (sorry!). Bigger events in my life such as job interviews, speaking in public, Space-a'ing from country to country (ha) and so forth bring me much more stress than the average person. My heart feels really tight, my back insanely knots up, and I begin to itch and sweat (and this is coming from a girl who can run five miles through German villages and hardly break a sweat). Even daily tasks such as grocery shopping bring me great anxiety. I'm sure everyone with two small kids feels the same to some degree but I have known for a while that how I feel probably in not what the average person feels. So I decided to get help.

Along with a healthier mind and spirit is the obvious- body.

Today I attended a nutrition/weight loss class on base. It was a good little refresher! Eating "healthy" is definitely a struggle for me. My body is very much addicted to fat, sugar and carbs. I don't remember when it begin. Sometime after Dylan was born I suppose. I feel out of control sometimes and just want to eat everything in sight. And yet sometimes I am still not satisfied. I watch shows such as Heavy and I used to be fat and I really can relate to those people. I know, I know, some of you may read this and laugh because afterall It's not that I am morbidly obese but according to my BMI I actually am considered "obese". Blah- I hate that label. And people often tell me "Oh be quiet. You look great for having two kids". (1) I don't want it to be an excuse that I had two kids and (2)I know what I looked and felt like before the boys came along and I would like to be at that place again. Like yesterday. So I am working on snacking on better food such as raisins and on my portion sizes. For dinner I am eating not the healthiest of things but I am trying to just eat less of it. Little changes. Hopefully all that on top of going to Zumba three times a week will give me some results in the months to come. Wish me luck!

3 comments:

Momma Voss said...

Good luck, I use www.sparkpeople.com

I have been a member since 2006 and have used it several times to help me eat better and lose weight.

Katie said...

it's tough. I've suffered from stress and anxiety for several years (if not the majority of my adult life) and it can be really taxing on all aspects of your life. So {{HUGS}}. But you're doing a good thing, improving your diet and exercise is a FANTASTIC way to help. Hello endorphins! Keep it up hon and if you are ever looking for some easy, yummy, and low cal meal ideas, just let me know :)

Rosemary said...

Eating healthy is not easy or fun. But it is a good habit to have. Eventually youy body will adjust to the healthy diet and the next time you eat something that is unhealthy your body won't miss it. Try drinking a large glass of water before eating your meal. It helps you eat less and feel fuller. Also many times people mistaken being "hungry" for being "thirsty". Remember: it takes your body 20 minutes to recongize it is full. Drink plenty of water, eat slower and don't think about food. I eat to feed my body and not my desire for the taste of food. *Of course food should taste good but try not to meditate about the taste of food. "Mind over Matter" Good Luck Sista!

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