Life before kids.. What life?

Today as I sat at the park and watched my two beautiful boys play I thought about all the time and energy that goes into being a mother. Every single minute of every single day I spend thinking of the two little creatures whom lived in my body for 10 months and now roam this earth. Almost all of my energy, if not all of it, goes into thinking how I can better their lives. How I can keep them healthy and happy. It blows my mind. Really. I think you really have to be a mother to be able to understand how life as one is.. You can try to explain it to other people, even expecting mothers, but until a baby is placed into your arms and your life forever changes, you will never fully understand. Sometimes I think to myself "What on earth did I do before they came along?" (besides the obvious which resulted in their existence :smirk::) I mean honestly though, I can't even fathom anymore what it would be like go about my day with no worries in the world.
People grow old on this earth and make the choice to never procreate. They travel to different countries and climb mountains. I am sure to these people they are living life. But if you ask me, and I may be bias, "life" truely starts with motherhood. My husband once had a speaker in his college class who said something along the lines of how one can be super wealthy, the head of his/her company, has everything they have ever wanted and needed in life, but until you have procreated you have failed at the only job God has put us on this earth to fulfill. And please, I hope noone ever stumbles upon this and becomes offended by anything I have said, I understand that some people try with everything they have to bring a child into this world through every option available and still leave empty handed. For those people my heart breaks..

but really.. motherhood is just something else. It is an adventure of a lifetime and I feel so blessed to have experienced it, even if to the people without children I look like the crazy lady who hasn't showered in days and has green beans on her shirt. ;]

Wouldn't trade it for a minute!

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For those of you who don't know me well, I am aware of the fact that you probably think I spend entirely too much time on the internet for having two little ones, and that I don't need a blog to add to the numerous other things I do on here... but in all honesty, a blog is probably the best thing I can do for myself right now. It is a healthy way for me to express my thoughts and feelings..and save my husband from hearing all of it when he walks in the door (poor guy!). ::chuckle::

So ready, set, go... here I come with nothing but all honesty from my heart and occasionally tears from my eyes..